I'm pushing each day, stuggling to move forward, making moments count as they come and damning the ones that doubt my mind. I realized I really am angry and just pushing it with all these other feelings away. Making it more furious and me miss out on the things I love most in this life. No matter nothing is working it seems for long enough this time around.
I sat in my truck and screamed till I couldn't stand it anymore, the tears came strong and I yelled at Rob for leaving and for me for feeling this way. What's going on with me right now I can't figure out. I felt so secure in letting go till they buried him maybe triggered all of this?? then I realized he's really gone.
I miss him.